When God Began to Reveal My Heart: Feeling Unworthy of God’s Calling

Feeling Unworthy of God’s Calling

When the Holy Spirit began to show me things in my own heart, I realized something important… all of us have something in our past that we are not proud of. Maybe it is something only God knows about. Maybe it is something the enemy constantly reminds us of, making us question our ability to serve God and fulfill His purpose for our lives.

When the Holy Spirit first put it on my heart to begin discipling and mentoring young women, I felt completely unworthy. I felt like God could never use someone like me. I believed I had nothing to offer.

Yet the Holy Spirit kept gently nudging me to step out in faith, so eventually I did.

When “Helping” Was Really Control

As I have shared before, I struggled for years with codependency without even realizing it. I convinced myself that I was simply “helping” or “fixing” situations. I thought others needed my help. I thought I had the right answers.

What I have not shared before is that I am also easily offended.

I get offended when my husband says something I do not like. I get offended when my children do not agree with the advice I am trying to give them. I get offended when I feel left out or not included. Honestly, the list could go on and on.

I am a work in progress and do truly desire to change. I have to remind myself of what Romans 7:18–20 ESV says:

“For I know that nothing good dwells within me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out. For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me.”

Learning to Surrender Daily

For years, the Holy Spirit has gently shown me that I need to surrender my control, my opinions, my offenses… really my whole life and mind to Him daily.

He continually reminds me of what Galatians 2:20 ESV says:

“I have been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.”

Stepping Out in Obedience

Over the last year or so, I have also felt the Holy Spirit nudging me to begin sharing how women, like me, can disciple and mentor younger women.

When I asked the Lord how that would even be possible, I believe He led me to start this blog.

Let me assure you, this would not have been my first choice. Please know that I am doing this simply as an act of obedience.

Before you decide discipling and mentoring is not for you, I want to remind you that discipling others is not simply a suggestion from Scripture — it is a command. (Matthew 28:19–20; Titus 2:3–5)

Like many of you, I did not feel qualified. I felt unworthy and believed I had nothing valuable to offer. But the beautiful truth is that we all have something to share about what the Lord has done — and is still doing — in our lives.

I want to encourage you today: you can disciple and mentor a younger woman too.

It simply begins with a willingness to be led by the Holy Spirit.

Discipling Begins With a Simple Yes

Let me share how it started for me.

I began asking the Holy Spirit to show me who He wanted me to mentor. It did not take long.

One Sunday, while sitting in the back of church, I felt prompted to ask a young woman if she would like to meet for coffee sometime. She said yes.

For the next year and a half, we met every other week at a local coffee shop. We built a genuine relationship. Even though she has since moved away, we still stay in touch, and I have even gone to visit her.

Right now, I am discipling and mentoring several young women. I have found that it not only blesses them, but it has also blessed me in ways I never imagined. It is truly worth it.

I want to encourage you to begin praying and asking the Holy Spirit to show you someone to disciple and mentor. If you are willing, I truly believe He will answer that prayer because this is close to His heart.

There Is No Perfect Way to Mentor

As we journey together, I will continue sharing different ways you can encourage and help a younger woman grow in her walk with the Lord.

And I want to assure you of this: there is no perfect formula for discipling someone.

For me, I enjoy meeting face-to-face at a coffee shop. For someone else, it may look like inviting a young woman over for supper. For another person, it may be taking her on errands with you.

The important thing is simply being available.

I truly believe the Holy Spirit will give you wisdom, direction, and understanding for what is best for both you and the person you are mentoring.

God Can Use Your Past for His Purpose

Each of us has areas in our lives we are not proud of. Each of us struggles with sin. But I want to encourage you with this truth: God can use our past, our struggles, and even our wounds to help someone else heal and grow.

The enemy would love for us to believe otherwise, but Romans 8:28 ESV reminds us:

“And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose.”

And friend, that is such good news.

Will You Step Out in Faith?

Will you step out in faith with me?

Will you begin asking the Holy Spirit to send someone for you to disciple and mentor?

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Until next time,

Beth